AloNe In ThE DaRkneSS rEcAlLiNg ThE woNdErfUl MemorIeS we Had

Life is like a boat

2006-01-18T05:12:00.000-08:00

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Whoâ€™s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we canâ€™t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another
daydooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta
mitaikudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadakeinori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsuasayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just donâ€™t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku
narutsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku
And every time I see your faceT
he ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soonI can see the shore
Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought Iâ€™d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi motsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasuinori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsuasayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate madeAnd every time
I see your faceThe ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore
Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

2005-12-25T06:28:00.000-08:00

gosh something darn funny happened today its rather miraculous though...can u imagine Teck Tee was like telling me he wanna go to my church the indonesian congegration GRII(singapore) that is like...gosh...a miracle i was like wondering what is he gonna do when he dont understand indonesian language hohohoho so anyway he really went and guess what he fell asleep and he snored!! gosh...haha i was trying to wake him up but then yeah...haha no choice went for dinner and went home after that hahas thats all for today

AWESOME Chirstmas !!!

2005-12-24T10:38:00.000-08:00

Oh my God!!this is the most wonderful Christmas i've ever had for the past 5 years!!I really really love this one!!allright i shall start from the morning...i was waken up at 7am in the morning and i was like hesitating to get ready...so i got prepared anyway and reached plaza singapura by 9.22 i was 48 mins early to meet Teck Tee...so i walked around plaza sing and finally!! its 10 but as usual Teck Tee havent reach the place ON TIME...so i msg-ed him and then i was surprised that he arrived earlier than usual but well not AT THE RIGHT PLACE...with his so-called "looking for place to have dinner" excuse...haha allright i guess i have to learn to trust him now he's kinda trustworthy or i hope so....=) p.s:hey its a compliment!!i used to tell u i dont trust people right now i do!!and its you you should be proud of it !!! haha ok...so...lets continue with my Christmas Eve...hahaha so i went to HMV while Teck Tee was on his way to Plaza singapura haha so dumb so i went ahead to HMV and then looked for some OST i was hoping that "The Chronicles of Narnia"'s soundtrack is released so it wasnt anyway so i went back to Plaza sing to meet Teck Tee he was playing his dumb maximum tune game...grrrrrr i had to wait for him to finish his dumb game ok so anyway....he lost almost all of the races so he was like FURIOUS about that and i was like..."haiya,relax lah its just a game...u wont die from losing" so he was kinda not happy but he was smart enough not to anger me so we went to Long John Silver to have out lunch even during lunch he was still yapping about that shit game...so i was like"then dont play anymore lah...its a waste of money anyway..."and for once we had an agreement which is like amazing...haha alright so i was spamming sms to Geraldine and she was like so so so furious about her parents not letting her to go to town and she had to watch some dumb show i dunno what hhahah "it must have been tough on you potato-san" *evil grins*hahaa so me n Teck Tee went to lan shop -omg-then went in to play dota for 4 hours long!!i was having concusion after that...untill i forgot my ez-link card...stupid me lucky my good Godbro took it for me hahaha thankyew!!! so... after that we went back to plaza sing -again...- to the pizza hut this time haha and had out dinner there...after dinner i went to "kick ervin's ass" hahaha we had another company oh by the way when we were eating it was darn dumb of the people next to me...Nasri and Teck Tee they are like so...i dunno what to say...they played with my leftover pizza...=.=and stacked it and migosh i dun wanna remember what they did to it, it was damn gross!!oh anyway jasmine took a picture of it i'll try to upload it when im free...hahaha after that i didnt know what to do with the remaining time so we went to walk around orchard while Nasri was doing some stupid thing hahaha he went to tap gal's shoulder whenever he saw them and pretend like nothing happens soon me n Teck Tee was like doing the same dumb shit hahaha damn funny!after that we went to cineleisure to let our two hungry Ghosts to eat namely Ervin and Endi hahah after they eat,again i didnt noe what to do...we wanted to go changi abandoned hospilat but the gals dun dare to,wanted to go east coast all the gals-again-shook their head unwillingly hahha so we went to walk to a bus stop anyway for who knows what for and Nasri was seems pissed off by someone so Carene n Nas went on home while we went to wait for ERWIN whom said will arrive within 5 minutes which ended up in 45 minutes hahah its ok understood too many people even the cars have got no space to move lol so after that Erwin went to look for his cousin's pressie and we waited for 30 minutes i guess,me n Teck Tee was like...hurry up lahh....we've got to go soon!!! hahaha then again he said he needs the gift to be wrapped within 13 minutes or 30 minutes hahah who knows within that 30 or 13 minutes time something dumb or rather terrifying happened guess what...Endi flung his hand onto Ervin's and *poof* the handphone fell from the 3rd floor and unfortunately it hit someone's head real hard...well i didn really saw it but when Ervin told me his hanphone fell i was like ''oh c,'me on i know its Xmas and u didnt have to joke this far..." well for once i was being stupid and listened to him hahaha and i saw a lady holding her head in pain so...i guess it was true i was like "oh shit..."haha i dunno what's gotten into Teck Tee but he was the first one to respond to the situation hahha soon after that he called me to go down so i went down anyway...after we ran and ran and ran about apporximately 45 mins we finally found the so called information centre which was located at who knows where we went to make a report there and after we finished,a guard came to us and showed us a phone which was Ervin's the "murderous weapon gonna be" haha so me n Teck Tee was like...look at the time shiet...we went out of cine barely unscathed from all the dumb sprays and went on home but...while ervin,erwin,endi enjoyed their cab ride, we were walking from orchard, all the way to bukit timah passed the newton circus finally we've got a cab yay!!! so we went to take the cab home and guess what the stupid backdoor at my condo was locked so i had to turn one big round to get home lol but it was a wonderful Chirstmas...lots of adventure lol thats all for today

2005-12-22T05:43:00.000-08:00

today went down to town again LOL i met up with wei xiang in the morning,then we go down to town...go find present for TECK TEE -if he dont get me anything he will get it from me* evil grins*-then after that teck tee sms-ed me and said wanna meet up at P.S at 1 but in the end,as usual he was late for 45 mins...as usual...kinda sick keep waiting for him though...ok anyway...haha we went around to look for places to have dinner on sat night...but well couldnt find anything else bah!! dumb place called orchard.so in the end we went to pizza hut haha but they dont take bookings...so i guess i'll just have to go on the day itself to book the time and then tt idiot went to play his stupid car game again...then wei xiang go cut his hair.wah all come n pang seh me one by one...swt saded lol ok anyway after they are all done...we went to food court to eat...but then...when i opened my wallet,tt stupid godbrother of mine saw the recipt of what i have bought for him and start to make a bigg ruckus in front of the foodcourt and start chasing after me to take the wallet then its like...everyone turned their eyes on us wooot u stupid idiot make me paiseh only...so K-PO for what u will noe it on the day itself what...dumbass lol joking
stupid lah he,he left a few scratch on my arms GO CUT UR FINGERNAIL LAH OR I CALL U MY GODSISTER ARH!! lol ok ok so... after we eat,me n wei xiang go toilet...then we thought teck tee wanted to buy food so we went in but when we came out,woot he disappeared his phone spoiled...cant contact him i tried and tried to contact him but no avail...sighh then i go home alone siann...then i msg him,finally he replied then he say i pang seh him...walau i didnt lah bro its u pang seh me lor haha ok nvm....i went down to chase after him but didnt see him then after that i went back to PS then wei xiang called he said teck tee is at the bus stop what!! then i quickly ran down hope i could catch up but when i got there he was on the bus alrady!!! STUPID 190 NV WAIT FOR ME!i feel so bad though its like as if i pang seh him lol sorry lah bro didnt noe who ask u to be such a glutton! LOL thats all for today

2005-12-19T11:02:00.000-08:00

allrighty this was a very very dreadful day indeed for me coz im gonna get back my result...but THANK GOD!!i managed to slip thru with luck and YES! i learnt my lesson i got thru this BLOODY N level without studying and i dont think it will happen for O's haha so im gonna mug n mug n mug next year or so what rachel said turn into a bookworm @_@
i've got 10 points bah! UNSATISFACOTRY!!! i was aiming for a 5 or at least 7 =.= nuuuuuu dun force me~T^T
allrighty im going down to town with teck tee tmr =.= its like i've been with him these hols... bah who cares as long as i can go out its good enough hahaha and guess what!
im having insomnia...i've been having it for like 3 weeks! 3weeks of sleepless nights...worse than camp n camp planning... kays...i better get my sleep now
later...

2005-12-18T07:04:00.000-08:00

lol
christmas is coming yea ? haha just wanna share a verse with my brothers ans sisters in Christ

Isiah9:5
For unto us a Child is born,
Unto us a Son is given,
And the governement will be upon His shoulder,
And His name will be called
Wonderful,Counselor,Mighty God,
Everlasting Father,Prince of Peace.

what makes the Angels in the Heaven shout praises,what makes the heaven sing Glory ,Glory ,Glory to the Son of God?

it is the the salvation,the deliverence of soul,the repention,so why dont you bring a soul to God this xmas?

2005-12-17T08:06:00.000-08:00

Lukas 2:10-11

10.Lalu kata malaikat itu kepada mereka;'Jangan takut sebab sesungguhnya aku memberitakan kepadamu kesukaran BESAR bagi seluruh bangsa:11Hari ini telah lahir bagimu Juruselamat,yaitu Kristus,Tuhan,dikota Daud

sighh

2005-11-24T07:22:00.000-08:00

allright im going back to bloody terrorist maifested indonesia tmr...so few last updates yea...
erm allright today went to singapore casket to visit ms tan choh hoon gosh i pity her she underwent that treacherous chemotheraphy her hair was almost bald...she became so skinny...poor ms tan...i cant go for her funeral on firday *sighh*dumb homevisit....of all the days...blimley!allright here's a short story

There was a woman who lived and then one fine day she asked herself...what am i doing here in the world...what is my purpose...she think and think and think but she couldnt think of anything...dread of living,she decided that she will end her life because all those who are around her treated her as if they had never seen her.before her death,she wrote a note it went."i have decided to end my life here.i will jump into a river and drown myself.if there is supposedly just one person who smile at me on my way to the river i will revoke my decision."so she went to the river but unfortunately no one not a single one of the people she saw on her way smiles at her so she decided to end her life.

moral of the story is...:Your smile makes a difference =)

why do we celebrate christmas?anyone?

2005-11-13T17:19:00.000-08:00

We all celbrate Christmas dont we?,but how many of us actually know what is the true meaning of Christmas,why do we celebrate Christmas,why are people so happy on those days.
Christmas,is actually made up of two words:Christ & mass it is actually Christ's mass a celebration of our Lord being born in the world.The one that comes down from the Heaven above to atone for our sins.The price that we have to pay for sin is death but now,Jesus Christ,son of God come down from Heaven to pay for our sin,because only through Him,we can be reunited with our Father in Heaven.
As why do we exchange Christmas presents is actually not because of fancy gifts but its is actually to remind our friends,our brothers and sisters in Christ that Christ has been born today,and the gift of salvation can be gained by everyone in the world.He died for us before we even know Him what more can we ask for?We were forgiven,so that we may believe in His name and we do not have to face His wrath upon the judgement day and thrown into the hell,where eternal torture and gnashing of teeth can be heard forever.

John3:16 says:" For God so loved the world,that He gave His only begotten Son,so that those who believe in him will be saved"
that is the love of our God

updates >.< (2)

2005-11-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

oh addition to the previous update,dear Teck Tee...I will not and i have no reason to hate anyone in this world except for special cases...there is nothing else in this world that i hate more than those who take their life and friends and especially gifts from God for granted...and please remember this...to find the truth,you have to throw away all your preconceptions,gather all the evidences and the truth will appear...hope u understand this...bro
4th nov
swttt big big swttt for denyse,she told me that she would be ready by 1030...i called her and her bro answered swtttt ok then i waited untll 1050++ haha then she FINALLY made a dramatic entrance ok...so we started off attempting fermentation but i guess we were both too hungry to think so i bought myself a double-cheese burger hahah SPECIAL ORDER kaes without PICKLES!HAHA ok...yah then talk talk talk untill i saw wei xiang swt larrh u arent u supposed to be studying at home haha ok...he was doing commonwealth maths ppr1 and he used CALCULATOR...booo then after i finished' teaching' denyse,i went for lynette's new hosuewarming party oh well...im glad it was all solved,misunderstandingd,anger that almost became hatred but finally concealed and didnt become hatred thank God...so...im fine with Hilary now supposedly well that all depends on him now...(i still believe there is very few greater joys than joy of forgiveness,to forgive and to be forgiven) i yea...so...we went tah eat...at her hosue of course since its a housewarming party uh huh then Teck Tee had to go off becuz of his piano lesson,poor guy so im left with hilary after than we went home and then i slept...and had a wierd dream...oh and when i was at lynette's house,i saw a part of the dream flashing back thru my memory...is it for real i dreamt and saw it before hand...this is getting creepy eversince 4 yrs ago i have been having this wierd thing going on i just hope its a gift from God oh wells thats all for yesterday

updates >.<

2005-11-05T06:04:00.000-08:00

3rd nov
sighh what a fateful day...ok...in the morning went out with ervin to watch SKY HIGH...man he is just so slow in everything he do can...haha he took i dont know how long to bathe...and all these stuffs i wonder if he's really not a girl...hahah ok ANYWAY...i was walking walking then after that herlina told me that she is also in suntec haha ok so anyway we went to watch sky high overall wasnt that bad,infact it is one of the less-lame show i've ever watched this year almost all the show i've watched this year are all damn lame...then after that lin told me that there were Exorcism of Emily Rose sneak preview damn it lah i wanted to watch that show if i knew i should have watched it first then Sky High sighh nvm... so anyway went to eat bakmie before that iw as starving coz this ervin,so he was deciding on wether to buy battery or not dah....he took 30mins to decide WONDERFUL....haha yah then went home and then....some fateful thing happened went home bathe and then i felt something promting me to msg Teck Tee sighh then after that without further ado went to msg him and well...turned out like shit at first coz he didnt wanna tell me why was he angry with me sad lah...I was damn sad when i knew he was angry with me what's more hurting was he didnt wanna tell me what made him angry sighh yeah so...i went on 'pestering'him with my sms-es and BIG BIG thanks to si hui she helped me out in the problem solving qquest XD thx!! so finally he told me what made him angry...and guess what...my guess was right...its because i was angry with hilary dah...then blah blah blah and one more thing...yes i know i am rather vulgar nowadays...i am so sorry *bows and says "gomenasai~otou-otou"*oh wells he wasnt the first one to tell me but well thanks anyway at least it goes to show that someone else noticed that i changed and stopped me right on time *bows again and says"arigatogozaimasu~otou-otou"*so i promised him that i will change...I sYAoRaN(ryanXD i just begining to love my japanese name lalala~XP)promises that i will mend my way and stop using vulgarities as much as i can!!I PROMISE!and i am so sorry Teck Tee that sometimes i showed u some dumb attitude i just dont know what the hell happened to me nowadays lah*bows and says"sorry for what had happened and what is to come"sorry~*well after that problem was solved i can finally rest in peace after my whole week of deprived sleeping
ohhh and special thanks to my so-called uncle haha 'Om Yunas' hehehe he reminded me to the Creator and leave all my worries to him thanks for the spiritual reminder and support ^^ Thank You~
Psalm 23:4,
Yea,though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,I will fear no evil for Thou art with me;Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me. Thank God it was solved without breaking my friendship Yokata~

2005-11-01T06:13:00.000-08:00

bleh just for the sake of updating this blog....past 4 days has been really really a turmoil ahh i just dread this week phew
i found a very very nice song ah well lets just paste the lyrics just for the sake of updating
Maaya Sakamoto - LoopNee
kono machi ga yuuyami ni somaru toki wa
Sekai no dokoka de asahi ga sasuKimi no te no naka sono hana ga kareru toki wa
Chiisana tane o otosu darou
Fumikatamerareta tsuchi o michi da to yobu no naraba
Me o tojiru koto de mo ai kanaa?
Kono hoshi ga taira nara futari deaete nakatta
Otagai o toozakeru you ni hashitte ita
Supi-do (speed) o yurumezuni ima wa donna ni hanarete mo
Meguru kiseki no tochuu ni mata mukaiau no darou
Nee kono machi no yuuyami ga sariyuku toki ni
Kono namida tsuretette
Katarikakete kuru moji o shousetsu to yobu no nara
Todokanai kotoba wa yume kanaa?
Yodominaku nagareteku kawa ni ukabeta konoha deUmi o mezashite kumo ni natte ame de furou
Tooi kimi no chikaku de ochita tane o sodateyou
Chigau basho de kimi ga kizuite kureru to iin dakedo
Kono hoshi ga taemanaku mawaritsuzukete iru kara
Chiisaku aketa mado no soto keshiki o kae
Watashi no aishita hana sotto mebaeru kisetsu de
Meguru kiseki no sono hate mata mukaiau no darou
Mukaiau no darouKururu mawaru kuru kuru to
Kuru kuru kimi no mawari o

A fine day once in a purple moon-(supposed to be blue)

2005-10-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

Well woke up in the morning then on the com,logged on to msn-as usual-said hi to all those who was online in the morning...then after that pk said he wanted to come to my place @1040++ but he ended up here @ abt 1++ nice job done there hehe.so after that he came to my place which is like...FINALLY!!then watched FF7;Advent Children first before we went to swim...then swam for like abt 40 mins i guess then it was gonna rain so he do not want to stay in the pool.reason:''dont want kena shocked by lightning'' -.-LAMO ok so we ended up in the sauna thingy stayed there for abt....2 hrs i guess amazing we didnt faitn inside...hmm then inisde talked abt some ahem...'private and confidential'problems....so yeah i shant blog abt it XD aft tt wash up...then he went home and here am i bloggin+bored hmmm

P.S:Ong Teck Tee u lied to me damn it i told u I HATE LIARS.im gonna say this for one more time and the last time I HATE LIARS if u didnt wanna go with me then fine la u should have told me honestly as if im gonna eat u alive if you say that i understand humans have the right to choose thats y tell me honestly damn it !!!

sharing

2005-10-20T03:19:00.000-07:00

just to share with you guys of what i think abt the world nowadays...
In the United states,there is a man who could earn U$1,000,000 by just cracking jokes.The jokes are in various situations of life,but the climate is ALWAYS the same.The person,Rodney Dangerfield earned his living by just saying:"I didn't get any respect."His listeners will laugh upon the sentence
now,my question is...
- what makes us being able to laugh about a person who couldnt get respect?
- Are we a society that laugh or feel happy when we see someone feeling so hurt after he/she got insulted?
- Or are we a cruel society that finds joy and happiness in making a fellow human being devoid of his dignity and insulted,feeling his dignity trampled on the ground?

come to think of it,all these stuffs do not happens on occasion,they are all in our daily lives,perhaps it's just that you couldnt see it through the person may go on laughing but deep down in his heart,he might feel hurt.
Have you done any of those to a person you know ?
Think about it...and then apologise.apologising is not easy but it is not impossible.

Challenges invokes a great will for our aspirations,but this great will burdened by fear of losing,becomes flouled with evil mind to dominate others-R.C.Sproul

ps.if anyone does not agree with me u are welcomed to state your opinion to me in msn ^^

I AM DEPRESSED AGAIN...

2005-10-20T03:15:00.000-07:00

i have no freking idea what had happened to me these few days...i just feel empty,devoid of love and feelings i want to cry out..,but no one could be there for me...i want to pour out,but there is no where to pour...i feel so devoid of everything i need...T^T

SO MUCH FOR A WEDNESDAY !!

2005-10-19T03:46:00.000-07:00

today...the day started off with not a bad begining well...but not so well anyway...nothing much to talk about so...let us skip to the DAMNED part of my wednesday...well there was a choir practice today but...i didnt want to go at first but i have got nothing to do at home anyway...so i decided to spare my time...just to get pissed off.In fact,the moment i stepped into the canteen,i saw something i didnt want to see SOME ASSHOLE'S F.FACE well that was the begining of my anger.And then i went into the room,and saw his bag and of course unable to handle my frustration,i assaulted HIS/HER bag...then during warm up,the instructor asked us to sing meow to the whatever tune he assigned.then the turned and said 'hey,Ryan that's ur tune'then i said 'if you think it is funny,laugh all you want'then he went on to say some stupid things and then joshua told him that im angry lyk D-UH DUMB-ASS HILARY.I WILL TELL YOU THAT:
1.I DONT NEED A FRIEND LIKE YOU
2.I DONT WANT A FRIEND LIKE YOU
3.DONT INFLUENCE MY FRIENDS TO BE WITH A BACK-STABBER LIKE YOU,COZ THEY DONT DESERVE YOU
4.GET LOST,FUCK OFF,SCRAM OFF AND DONT LET ME EVER SEE UR FACE AGAIN
5.I WILL NEVER DO ANYTHING ABOUT THIS SO IF YOU ARE NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING WELL,SAME HERE.
IF YOU SAID I HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM,THEN FINE I WILL SHOW YOU WHAT IS REAL ATTITUDE MOREOVER ITS NOT LIKE YOU NEVER SHOWED ME UR DUMB ATTITUDE ALSO,ITS NOT LIKE YOU HAVE A VERY GOOD ATTITUDE.
YES,YOU ARE FROM 3/1,SMART FINE SO WHAT,BUT YOUR ATTITUDE SUCKS.YOU LEAD THE PRAYERS EVERY MORNING SAYING THAT'God teach us to aprreaciate our friends that you have given or smth like that'PLEASE,DONT BULLSHIT DONT DISGRACE WE CHRISTIANS U HYPOCRITE!!YOU PRAY SO THAT YOU WILL NOT DO THAT,NOT TO PURPOSELY DO THAT US BACKSTABBER.IF YOU ARE SMART,BRAINY,SHOW ME WHAT CAN YOU DO TO STOP A RAMPAGING BEAST LIKE ME!!TRY ME I WILL SHOW YOU WHAT A BEAST LIKE ME CAN DO.GET LOST,AND DONT EVER INFLUENCE MY FRIENDS TO BELIEVE IN BACK-STABBER AND HYPOCRITE LIKE YOU!!!that's all i can say today so long and good night

2005-10-18T06:11:00.000-07:00

booo im blogging again that is like so...long ago since i blogged ah well...nth much to say...its just that some people have to spoil my day everytime i see them well what to do...nth much oh and by the way by rachel's request,she wants to say....Rachel:'I HATE LIARS!!!'

2005-08-17T04:03:00.000-07:00

well,im blogging yeah...well just ta vent my frustration...wtf!!u noe what a gay calling me a gay,he went pp=pregnant putra juz becoz i sit opening my both legs wide enuff for him or she to call me a pregnant woman.WTF whats his major malfuntioning problem,i mean did i insult u in any way NO i dont remeber i did i didnt even fuking tok to u arsehole whats ur problem calling me a pregnant woman u eunuch!!please look at your bloody gayish self in the freeking mirror before u say smth abt other ppl PLEASE~~ARSEHOLE!!fat oxymoronic assholic mother fucker!!-piff-well thats all i can say he or she is not a man or woman or apparenly i dont know what the fuck is that being!!some mutated shit if u have a freeking problem with me,BE A MAN!!come tell me face to face and stop calling names lyk some freeking chilsidh shit c'm on juz how freeking old are you!!the next time u do that, im gonna whack your bloody face untill no one recognises you,im gonna beat the living hell out of yer arse!!

2005-07-03T05:02:00.000-07:00

its been lyk since i dunno when was the last tym i wrote in my bloggie hmmz yea yea well nth much lately excepts tt IM SO STRESSED OUT now N is coming soon and my results were...HORRIBLE,TERRILBE,VEGETABLE!!well pray hard i will make it nxt yr

exam T.T

2005-05-21T04:46:00.000-07:00

omg guess what i did f***ing badly fer my exam haix...my english which was of A1 standard went all the way down to C5 sick man!!Mr Lam set untill so hard,he told me that this is only to prepare us for 'O' level its lyk i dunno how many of us are gonna make it for the 'O's well and then maths!!!!!i did extremely badd i was expecting to at least pass!!!but what i got 30%only crapz SH!T WTF muz work extremely hard for 'N' already cant go on lyk this *sighh*orhkeiz anyways away with the results first Stoopid Hilary came to my place today so idiotic go mess up my bed poured coke on it damn haha tts all fer this time

lols

2005-05-09T05:30:00.000-07:00

hi peeps kinda busy with exams nowawdays >.< so i wont really blog or even visit haha
sighh gtg n study now ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR EXAMS PEEPS !!cya

SYF

2005-04-04T05:07:00.001-07:00

today is the finally BIG day that we have been waiting for,SYF no lesson today yay!! but then parcticed da whole day so tired especially mah legs lol haha and then when we was at da tuning room did smth funny haha everyone hold hands in da circle and then close ur eyes and listen to Mr Goh lol when its our turn to perform,everyone just gets so freeking nervous haha and i broke out in cold sweat haha but after that,chill man we've got bronze with only time of 2 months plus!!!!!wahahaha then must perform in that stupid freak shit speech dae sighh freak.then on mah way home i found a lil birdie so ppor thing took it home but then mom asked me to relaese it so badd!! heartless

Friday:Easter sermon,Jesus is alive!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-28T22:08:00.000-08:00

ummm today woke up and then went to church,usual church supposedly was gonna skip the morning one coz im going to another sermon on the evening but in the end i did not lol!!after the morning session with the Holy Communion(yummy bread)lol,i went home,was watching some japanese food show then fell asleep hahaha then woke up took an mrt to Tanjong Pagar to Fairfield Methodist Chruch hahahaha sounds so British... but the sermon was in Indonesian language lol was sleepy when i reach dere hahahah but when i listen to the choir lol,i woke up haha they are loud manz better than ours lol then the sermon was by Stephen Tong(most likely u guys will not noe him as he is an Indonesian)wahahahaha!!!his sermon was interesting*luckily*or i would have fall asleep haha then listen to him'talk talk talk talk talk talk talk'untill abt hours lyk tt then renewal of commitment and then go home before tt went to buy books and eat dinner at Yoshinoya*freeking salty*thats all

lol apologies!!!

2005-03-28T22:07:00.000-08:00

heya ppl long time din update blog was kinda lazy and furthermore da stoopid tag board isnt working!!!blah!!!nvm i ill just get rachel ta do it fer meeh hahaha!!!

Black Valentine

2005-02-14T07:11:00.000-08:00

MANZ I JUST HATE VALENTINES S'POSSED TO BE A DAY FILLED WITH LOVE IZZIT HUMPH WELL IT IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN.VALENTINE IS SO FUK OF AN ASS CAN!!
NOW I KNOW WHY I HATE VALENTINES!COZ THEY ARE JUST A CRAPPY DAY FILLED WITH MORONIC EVENTS !!!BLOODY HELL!!

Today

2005-01-21T21:40:00.000-08:00

morning wake up and called my dear lil brother.then asked him out the he say ok so told him to meet me at 11 in the 961 bus.so after i called him,i went to bathe and had my breakfast then sat down at the sofa watching inuyasha then lil bro msged me aske me come down cox the bus reaching le so went down and i was on time so we met in the bus then went to kranji mrt and took mrt to novena then walked around there haha then crossed to united square and ate mac donald actually i din wan to eat one but then later lil bro angry...so i gave in to him and ate sighh haha haha but nvm then after we ate then i went to OP shop coz he say he wanna buy shirt haha but in the end also never go there n buy instead we went to orchard-paragon to buy his shirt went to the shop we bought out indentical wallet last year lol i chose a long sleeve shirt for him wahahaha i asked him to try it out and guess what!!he like it!!hahaha its cost s$42.oo,- then after that he wanna play LAN then i brought him to cineleisure lo haha but then full house so wanted to go to beauty world but along the way dropped at coronation again full house haha then wanted to go to beauty world after that he changed his mind and say wanna go my place play hahaha so went to my place and played till abt 6++then he go home then my turn to play haha after i played,i wrote in the bloggie bye

update for cca open house

2005-01-21T20:58:00.000-08:00

during the cca open house,the choir managed to recruit 20 people and ++ again then after that;me,lil bro,tina n hui yi went to westmall to buy sweets and a"dog"tag (if thats what they call it)for 1-6 and the"dog"tag for indra as he won the best camper during the camp yea then went to eat that day was so full of laughter which i never had it lyk i dunno how long so tina siad that we should go out more to destress haha ad set every tuesday as our outing day lol thats it for that day

Updates14-16 jan

2005-01-21T20:15:00.000-08:00

hey guys sorry din update for sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long im gonna update it now let me start from da sec 1 camp
14-16 jan:
well went for the sec1 camp.during the lunch time,it was very difficult to get them to co-operate it took 1 hours to settle them down sighh crazy manz...then after that planners went to study area and were rushd to finish our foods after im done with my meal,i went down to help the class instructors especially my class 1-6 hehe*act cute*-.-''' kk,then after that went on with banner making and campfire preparations.woah i cant stand them manz....running around so wildly as if they are in an open space oh man sickening then my dear class instructors have to chase them around lyk an officer chasing after mad dogs...sighh then me n vanessa wanted to teach them the handsign to squeeze so that instructors dont have to shout n scream at them all the time but then its was harder than what i expected but thought them in the end then greeted various seniors,planners,teachers and got points from them and of course from me too *hehe*then after that they went for shower and i went on to prepare their meals and of course everyone's meal hahaha then brian and keng teng helped us to prepare made out job simpler haha *thx* then after the class on duty did the canteen cleaning,we proceeded with our who am i game haha me n serra salim was stationed at the cyber cafe where apparently the sec1's cant see us i have given them ample opprtunities sighhh but still *dumb*enuff not to know haix haha then conan said"sec1's are always so dumb"haha k...then after that moved to the cupola and shortly after that the game ended and then again i went to prepare the sec1's supper.after their supper, they went in to their bunks ans sleep and then CI's and the planners had a debrief and then we too went to sleep.the second day was kinda long haha after i had my breakfast,i straight away went to my station and went on with the team building games first class was kinda screwed off haha but it went on well during the briefing and the debrief 12-1 we had our lunch.went up to hall after lunch to check on my dear class instructors then hui yi n tina complained abt 1-6 was very angry when the class was moving off,i screamed at them that none are to leave the hall untill the hall is cleaned and then 1-3 we continued with our team building games and then i was kinda surprised by 1-6's team spirit which they never had before so i gave them extra points for that then the carried on with the second and last preparating of the campfire was better than day 1 they cooperate now so we told them to do the item and they havent even thought of what to do then me n the class instructors was kinda angry at the same time confused after a while, let them off for the wash up then when they came back,told them that they are gonna embarras themsleves if they dont think of anything.during the campfire itself the came up with something i will go into that later lets talk about the campfire first.the campfire was splendid except for the wind then blows suddenly but that's unevitable then there were the most casualties during the campfire as the sparks went astray and hit some of the sec1 pupils then the red cross had loads of things to do good job red cross!!the mass dance was removed from the campfire which was quite dissapointing.anyhow,the campfire is still splendid the campfire this year was the noisiest loudest compared to the past years after that we went for out supper and then as ususal made the sec1's sleep and then had our debrief and then we went to sleep too.the last day!! woke up damn early and went on to prepare teh telematch itmes after the changes has been made.the sec1's played it and i can see that they are actually united as a class then after that went to prepare meals for them and then close the camp as the parents are already waiting for them.then we had our debrief and then went to clear our bunks and we played bombing games between the gals n boys,CI's and Planners haha the silent n solemn school soon became noisy again by out cheerings haha was damn fun im gonna miss it haha then after that went to take photos when i was kenneling down,my lil bro put his hand on my shoulder and keep on pushing me haha as teh result,i have to push tina haha*sorry*tehn went home to sleep after that

yesterday(20th january)

2005-01-21T04:59:00.000-08:00

after schol supposed to went for mdm liew's remidial but din went cox got indepth debrief by ms.lee in expected it to be full of scoldings but instead it turned out to be a wonderful laughing session haha we thrasehd things out there and to me this year's camp was the most splendid one haha*yay*after that me n lil bro stayed in school then talked about his problem i was kinda happy cox at least he will want to tell me his problems and it means that he treat me as his God-bro at least was quite delighted but was saddened after hearing his stories sighhh wish i could help...*saded*okays then after that went on to talk about choir then shortly shi ying came to join us ans talked too from choir we talked abt sc,dance,band and finally back to choir haha talked until about 7+ then sent lil bro home and then i went home n rest too.at night i asked him to call me then taked a bit more abt his problems then after that asked him out tmr and he asked me to call him again the next morning thats all

2005-01-03T20:37:00.000-08:00

sch reopen todae!!kinda exciting and shcocked to noe ur new form teacher is mr jerome tan eh and thenwoke up 5.30 in da morning went to sch after bathing and all these then...reached there abt 6.20 walk arnd da sch fer a while so creepy hahas then met christie and then opened up da sc room then ran to da hall and helped kean wai to set da chairs and then aft tt lil bro called me in da sch asked me where am i so i asked him to meet me at srdie area hahas so aft tt asked him wether he planned for da orientation or not and he said no then i was lyk oh no...then told him da things then send him back to class thens....yeah continue doing usehring duty seen all de sec ones again so funny seeing them in our sch uniforms haha then during the morning programme,the power tripped twice hahas then mr kumar tokld da parents to bear with the stupidity lol then there were alot of latecomers excpected lah ya hahas then ran twice from the sch hall to da vincent hall via teacher's lounge and study area then...stayed at da vincent hall fer a while hahas then aft tt went back to class and then i kena sabotaged as da class treasurer lol always and then...yea recess lil bro told me that he wanna come my place today hahas to set up da ragnarok online hahas then see him play ask him to set up the game then he went back he is very funny manx hahas one thing i lyk from him but i cannot stand at the same time is his craps hahas he really got a lot of things to say lolok ok i think tts all i have to say todae been a tiring dae cya peeps tmr

2005-01-02T20:26:00.000-08:00

YoZ ppl i changed my layout hahahax another ff workpiece nishh hor ahahs anyway sch is starting tmr cant wait for it to come and especially da sec 1 camp and orientation yea wooohooooo so excited hahas well thats all i have to say cya ppl tmr tata..

LEADERSHIP TRAINING CAMP ROX!! part 2(4nov)

2005-01-02T12:45:00.000-08:00

Day 2
Aft washing up i waited for the ppl who hasnt came back from the solo nite aft they went back,we had our breakfast and then we were briefed for our expedition that day i was briefing my team members instead of the instructor.yea so..i briefd them on wad they are adviced to wear and what they should bring and what are we gonna do there yeah then...we went to pack up and take bags to be brought up for those who are wiling to let the bag to be brought up to the mountain...so we collected the materials and the bag then we get ready to be on our way up to the mountain on our way we picked up big rocks to be used as a stove as wea re going to cook up there and make our own lunch.ya on our way we passed by a pretty stream i lyk it hahaz yea then sumone was atteacked by a leech yea but i dun really give a damn coz i noe everyone's gonna get it yes true enough almost all get it including me...i din even feel it when the leech sucked my blood out ahhaz but i feel good aft tt and tyhen along the way up it was slippery so i was shouting from the back to the ppl so that they can be careful aft we reached the top, we had to scale a big rock in order for us to get to the top of the mountain yea and then we went around to find a spot for the lunch,it took us 3 hours to get up to the summit.aft we found a spot me and hui yi went around to look for dry grass and twigs to be burnt for the cooking part and aft we collected the neccesities,we went to cut hahaz or should i say castrate the chicken for cooking...we decided on steaming the egg and then boil the rice and then just pour some baked beans and sardines but unfortunately there isnt much time a while after we reached the summit,the rain began to pour and so the instructor brought us down the summit,the way down was very slipperry and required extra carefulness.before we reached down,a group mate fell off from the cliff ,luckily she was caught by an instructor and she only hurt her arm with bruises and scratches.we took the same route down...same the road down was very very slippery and as a backman,i have to ensure that no one is left behind me and im supposed to be at the bacck this cause me to lose my energy very quiclky and upon reaching the stream,i lost my leg's strength and my leg began to shiver and furthermore i was carrying the bag all the wayh down hill without anyone's help!!but i managed to push myself till the end and til now i still cant believe myslef that i made it !!hahaz lol...yes and then after we reached down,we had our dinner and washing up aft that we had our campfire,it was fun yea...and we sabotage the teachers to lead us in the dances lol then next the scs to dance and cheer there and then aft the campfire is delcared close,i went in back to my tent and tend to the wounds that the puny little irritating leeches has made hahaz i din even feel anytrhing when the leeches bit me when i roll up my long pants guess what i saw there??hahaz i din see leeches but i saw blood dripping from my legs hahaz so i went to tend the wound and then i cant sleep altough i was freeking tired out yea...so i went out of the tent area and i do some reflection again hahaz it feels good to be alone and think of what u have been doing and from these i recovered my patience and impartiality which i have lost and now i recovered it it really feels good i feel stonger after that i get ready for the nxt morning which s also our last day....

LEADERSHIP TRAINING CAMP 2004 ROX!!(4nov)

2005-01-02T12:00:00.000-08:00

day 1
bwahahahahaha!!im back aft the camp.ok...the camp really rawk!!ok on 1 nov,we gathered at skool and then we were split into groups lol ok...and then...we set off to the custom hahaz q up to get thru and then we changed bus few times lol and then we took 2 hrs to reach the camp site at first,the camp site was freeking smelly but i get used to it aft tt and then...go set up the tent and then put our big bulky bags into the tents and yarhz...hahaz one of my fren left his passport inthe bus lol good thing he found it then....we were briefed then....and were introduced who were the intstructors hahaz(but i cant remember their names lol)...then we went for the first activities which was the absailing lol i did it fir the second time and yet im still quite afraid of it lolx cannot balme larhx ppl got height pheobiea lol then while the activities went on,i watched mr michael jumping arnd the brindge floating on the water he was jumping arnd like frog hahahz so funny yea and then we went for our lunch and ice breaker yea then...make banner for our groups and the cheer lolz the group name is very very funny full of crapz the group name is 'the bunch'bwahahahaha and then one of the instructor asked who wanna volunteer to be the leaders for thr nxt day's expedition so me and other three friend volunteered they are damian,hui yi and i cant rmb the gal's name im SORRY!!yeah btw u guys did a great job!!ok then then...aft that the instructor briefed us abt the expedition and what to bring all these stuffs yea and then...dinner yay!! then we went to wash up and prepare ourselves for solo nights rawk!!ya then the solo nite was freeking fun alone in the jungle in the dark without any lights and time hahaz ya time to reflect on ourselves an getta noe urself better ok well i did i manage to control my temper aft the nite hahaz i found what i dropped lolz muz congratulate meex!!hahaz and then from 10++till the nxt morning 430 din sleep lolz fun fun fun yeah did my reflection there and then nxt morning i decided to fast adni did it bwahahaha!!the rest was picked up at 6 special ppls were picked up at 430 coz our placed are rather challenging hahaz yeah it was fun and useful aft we reacher the camp site,we went to wash up and have my brkfast before i fasted on the day hahaz yupzzzx that was day one over!!

LEADERSHIP TRAINING CAMP ROX!!part 3(4nov)

2005-01-02T01:45:00.000-08:00

day 3
well lyk wad we do every morning as usual morning exercises and then breakfast after thet we did something special we went to a nearby stream near the campsite and wet ourselves there and we enjoyes ourselves there the strong current,cold fresh water hope i can get that everyday but well,one day is enough for me hahaz after playing a while,i i went down to a futher down river bank and sit bymyslef there and enjoy the nature...the sound of water hitting against the rock,hear the birds singing their song of freedom wah...so relaxin!!yea after one hour or so we went back to the campsite and wash up and then we pack up our stuffs and then went back to singapore after we did our area cleaning yeah..thats all i wanna thank the teachers to gimme this chance thx!!

16/12/2004 (rehearsed)

2005-01-01T03:46:00.000-08:00

hahas FINALLY went out with dear godbro(puay keat) again hahas YAY!!(16/12/2004) ohkays im being lame ya...er...about today well basically met up with di di at 11 (he was late fer 24 mins)hahas yea then took 171 to suntec city and then we came across this wierd guy that asked money from us n claimed tt he hasnt eaten for days herm..i think he is a con man i dun believe him hmmph!! eef it was true then im glad to bo ohf halp if not then gRR im gonna hunt him till the end of the earth hmmph!ohkays forget abt that and then...yea we walked from plaza sing all the wae to suntec city muahhaha(im mad)went there seacrh for mc donalds hahas then he went to eat treat him double cheese burger meal hahas ihts okay i dun mind spending money on him hehe yea after that we went to search for lan shop i was thinking that suntec dusen have any lan shop but...well dunno where he heard form that there is a lan shop over theree hahas then seacrh halfway he say wanna go arcade play so i accompany him lohx haha playes time crisis 2 or smth lyk tt i dunno lah i not tt good in arcade games so.. yea died quickly hahaz then he keep teasing me lol ihts ohkay let him be bahz haha then after playing game at arcadehe wants to continue to search for lan shop hahaha then i was lyk wad de.. ohkays so be it i shall accompany u to search hahas then he was lyk yay hahas and then...went to walk around search for it then i was lyk saying we have been scouring this place lyk how many times and there isnt any lan shop here haha so i was lyk if u wanna play lan sooo much i dun mind going back to cineleisure then he was lyk ok loh... haha then went out to cine on the way there he was lyk yapping n crapping around...then i was lyk wad de...shouldnt have let u eat juz now so tt u will have no strungth to talk hahaz yea made our way there then we were lyk damn tired walking hahas and then he played for one hour i waited on him...hehe yea then wanted to eat then he start toking abt a cartoon show so i was lyk i had the entire series at home then he was lyk i wanna watch then i said come my place n watch lah coz ihts not mine ihts my sis' so he was lyk when?i said anythime so he was lyk now??then i sadi no problem hahas then yea i went home with him and still yapping around hahas yea then on our way home we were drenched with rain the moment i reach home i on da com and then i let him watch lo..hahas then i went to bathe then go into the room and on aircon yea hahas cooling yea then i asked him to dry his hair dun wan to listen to meehx hmmph! hahas then he say cold then i spread the blanket yea then i dragged my table nearer to my bed then i sit on my bed watching he sit also then take blanket from mee then in the end share share loh hahas...then i was soooo tired i lay on the bed and he lay on me but it was nice and warm...dortz ihts ohkays i lyk it hahas yea then we were lyk so cold we were lyk hugging each other to warm oursleves hahas yea then he stayed over for dinner yea then abt 7.20 i sent him to bus stop and then wait for his bus to come yea then got off bid farewell to each other then went back home and blogged yea i think tts all for today cya

2004-12-31T23:28:00.000-08:00

today is the last day of 2004 a painful year for me indeed hopefully by the time 2005 goes along it will be a brand new year and brand new area to venture on its bound to be rocky and hopefully i can be strong to go through it all yea...those good memories and bad ones will stay on my mind hopefully next year wont be tt much of pain ones HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

Phantom of the Opera-All I ask of You

2004-12-31T23:03:00.000-08:00

No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you . . .

Say you love me
every waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .

Say you need me with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask of you . . .

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you . . .

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night . . .
and you always beside me
to hold me and to hide me . . .

Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime . . .
let me lead you from your solitude . . .

Say you need me with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
That's all I ask of you . . .

Say you'll share with me
One love, one lifetime . . .
Say the word
and I will follow you . . .

Share each day with me,
each night, each morning . . .
Say you love me . . . you know i do

Love me -
that's all I ask of you . . .

anywhere you go let me go too,

Love me,
that's all I ask of you

2004-12-31T19:42:00.000-08:00

today woke up at 9+ then play game till 2++,aft tt lil bro asked me to call him,so i called then he say he wanna come my place hahas so i said come lo hahas then he was so happy lol then reach me place le he smsed me to went down open da sidegate for him hahax then as usual toking crap till i reach my hse then start a pillow fight i dunno how it start lolthen aft tt,he say wanna use comp then i let him use he use comp to play r/o hahax then see him play very farnie he play will make a lot of noise de whahahx today i noe smth else abt mah lil bro weeee!hahas then he ask me to play also hahax then i say see how lar hahas then 4+he went home sent him to bus stop then play game a wile more then come to blog

Another enjoyable dae

2004-12-30T05:14:00.000-08:00

today woke up at 9 morning then eat bathe n everything then called jamine n tell her where to meet and what time to meet then aft tt di di msg me ask me to call him...wahahahaha then called him tok abt our new sch policies shucks man...sighh then he told me to tok longer lol coz he was on his way to cck from redhill hahas then he talk abt the syf song "sunset" then aft tt rehearse that song once then he say hang up first cox he wanna call his auntie lol.then call lers i call back then he tell me that he no need to call his auntie lers cox he has the key to the house lol then continue toking tok crap lol then tok tok tok see the time 1145 lers then i tell him gotta hang up da phone or im gonna be late hahas catually he say dun wan me to hang up da phone but after persuading him hard time...lol he let me off lol then hang up phone lers off com and then rush out le to catch the 67 to cck then went to top up ma hp and then wait for my lil bro always late one wahahahax he was late for half an hour manxx then going up to bus seen eileen they all they wanted to watch at lot one budden they missed the show so went to ps with us lors and then watched"Phantom of the Opera" hahas was very nice!!the soprano was DAMN GORGEOUS MAN!!she rawks hahahahax the movie was very alive lol very inspirational lol then watch finish the show le all go on their own way left me n my lil bro...coz we wanted to have dinner outside...then called nasri then aft tt go eat mac damn sick of it kaoz...then eat ler tok some crap and then went home and tok abt some things a long the way...yar basically thats all for today thx God for letting me have what i had today lol!!

2004-12-28T00:24:00.000-08:00

the briefing was today a lot of planners din came so do a lot of instructors din come dunno whats going on with the communication site sighh so idiotic man then before the biefing starts ms lee gave us some info abt our new principal sighh our theme for this year is"learn,unlearn,relearn"dunno what kind of bull is this the briefing was considered short there are still some comms that heve not briefed the instructors yet i dunno when are they gonna do that dun care cnat eb bothered anymore then went home found out that my frickin couz will not stay at my place till 30 dec blardy hell so yar quite happy have a few daes of privacy i think thats all no mood today(im always have no mood)dunno when is this nightmare is gonna end I HATE MYSELF!!

2004-12-27T18:40:00.000-08:00

In fact it was i who was betrayed,
Still i am hunted,
Still i am hated ,
Now in my blind i see what others cannot,
That sometimes the Hand Of Fate must be forced

2004-12-27T18:37:00.000-08:00

went to school this morning for choir practice with a high spirit then planned to go orchard to watch "Phantom of The Opera"but in the ned it was cancelled damn it!!onky went out with erwin,alistair and lil bro,then in the end went to lot 1 watched "Kung Fu Hustle"not bad lah...sighh but the plan doesnt work as i planned fark manz!!i hate this kind of day everything goes wrong!!not only today the rest of the year sighh im gonna save the conclusion of the year for the next few days...i hate it i mean i hate it sighh so screwed up why does it always get screwed up!!arghh!! i ahd enuff im not gonna care anymore!!Gah!!then aft watching the movie went to poplular wanted to buy song but realised that i dun have much left so forget it in the end i decided not to buy...then erwin and alisatir came to myplace lil bro went home so thats all for today feeling very fraked up manz !!no mood !!

2004-12-27T05:19:00.000-08:00

why has it got to be me?
what am i to you?
do you even treat me as one?
do you still have respect?
do you still trust me?
are words no longer trustworthy?
do we have to resort to this?
have you ever thought of my feelings?
if you said yes then that is nonsense
maybe im destinied to be on my own ?
to walk in the cold winter alone...

2004-12-25T04:03:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all...today tunrd out to be ok went out with jia jun,jasmine and carene went to IMM then walk arnd for a while then went to eat at long john silver then seen a teenage actress dunno whta the heck is her name and i dun care none of mah buisness after eating went to take bus to boon lay mrt station and then decided to go bp after a long yapping then wanted to plae bowling coz i never played for quite long but the rate was 3.90 per game fark then forget it sighh then went to westmall for a while went to plae arcade therex plae a while then came home and still my computer lag making me furious FARKED UP LAP TOP!! im gonna reformat it in a few daes time mabbe if i have the time...then after tt went online tok to eileen she say monday she cannot go to orchard tt far wad de...sighh nvm and monday if lil brother not going then im not going too the plan's gonna be damn messy!!sighh...i dunno what the fark is wrong with me manz its chritmas and i raised my voice to my mum juz coz i cant stand her yapping oh my God....!!this year is a VERY FARKED UP CHRISTMASS FOR MEEH!!God please grant me one my wish its just a small wish its gonna be a great pressie for me-please help me control my temper its getting out of hand nowadays!!thankyou
sighh i wanted to say sorry but im just cant open my mouth to say that...whats wrong with me??...have been very distracted lately cant even walk properly i almost banged into a car when i was walking just now i hope it was an active car but it wasnt haiz...I HATE TODAY!!WHY DID EVERYTHING WENT WRONG NOTHING GOES RIGHT!!Sighh i think thats all for this farked up dae bubbye
___signing off{in a very very foul mood}

2004-12-24T21:20:00.000-08:00

sighh what the heck tmr is christmas and i dun have any plans for tommorow yet sighh...guess will be having my lonely chirtsmas for this year well what to do...sometimes the hand of fate must be forced

Sec 1 registration day

2004-12-23T13:02:00.000-08:00

today went to school,woke up at 6.45 sighh slept at 12++last nite then muz wake up tt earlly oh my...now im so tired...hehe but had fun day and exciting lol when i reach the school gate i was thinking i was late so i ran sighh who expects that the rest of the ppl were late too hahahax aufat was late by 1 hour ++ then he kept on complaining all the way hahas he said how could i woke up at 8.45 when i set the alarm at 6??!!hahas then i was lyk mabbe u din hear the alarm then he said he set two alarms hahas piggie(jkjk)yea then i helped ms png with her distributing of books hehe muz always wear a smile(lyk idiot liddat)then after that helped the juniors with the ushering manz all shaddup one lors all dun dare to talk then i have to keep on asking them to SMILE and ASK them if they need any help so idiotic manz...haiz then got one scout guy keep one joking at the wrong time never behave himself sighh diu lian ars omG nxt time i see him i will scold him bleah...then finish ushering le go bring the sec 1 ppl for a school tour then there wa sone guy very farnie one keep on calling me boy...then his lao po keep sayin "aiyoh u can read his name or not he bring us around u keep calling boy at least know his name lars"then i was lyk *dortz*hahas very farnie he said he used to coach our school softball then i was lyk realli?then i no need to bring u arnd le mahz then he say changed a lot le lols then i was lyk oh ohkays hehe yea bring them to the special rooms then bring them to bookshop after that to buy books lol then went to office take booklist to be distributed sighh run here run there alamak then distibute liao after that i stand there slack a while then parents start coming asking questions haha funny questions lol but ya go a lot of feedbacks hahas very happy to hear lols SC jiang lai got hope le worxx jia you!!hahas then finished everything by 1030 then went back sc room for briefing lalala then ms lee keep saying sc is an elite group in the school we represents the whole student body and the school itself blah blah blah so sian keep on repeating the same thing sighh then ms lee says she very happy with the juniors say jiang lai got hope again *dortz* then when sumone made a good comment everyone will start saying"got hope"so lame lorsyea then aft tt my turn to comment coz ms lee say i very quiet lols then say the parents are very happy with us and have a good impression of our schol then everyone was lyk *wow*yay!!hahas ya thats all for the debrief hahas and today

2004-12-22T09:06:00.000-08:00

sighh have been boring dayzz nth to do at home juz afew dayz a go experienced a network problems so cocked up one but now ok le or else how i blogg??sighh well basically thats all nth much cya

2004-12-19T14:54:00.000-08:00

sighh today damn suay manz last nite sleep to late then the next day no voice to sing for choir mahz wad de...ar...tts bad enuff plus another one go long john drop my drink fark manz dunno wad da hell's wrong with me today sighh

2004-12-18T08:39:00.000-08:00

today went out with bing yang...meet at lot 1 then after that went to meet teng yong and hui min actually wan to go NkF dunno what thing de then in the end all dun wanna go tsk!!actually the main reason to go out today was to buy new cd and photocopy scores for lil brother then in the end dun wan to go home so walk walk till abt 8 then aft tt ask brian wether can meet or not then he say not sure but in the end still meet hahas yea then aft meeting brian,bing yang,hui min and teng yong go home left me and brian nia sighh then i was very shy then nv tok much coz nv go out with him b4 mah hehe then i went to eat my dinner,then aft tt went to starbucks chill a lil while then 11++le i go home ya think tt all bah

2004-12-16T23:03:00.000-08:00

sighh such a boring day...nothing to do at home went ot school fer a while jst now went to buy books and pe shirt n pe short sighh well basically rotting at home bleah supposed to be going out with brian and BY haiz in the end forget to ask then forget it lo...haiz signing off

2004-12-13T02:10:00.000-08:00

wah...have been having late nights cracking my brain for da meal com it was hell but well finally it was done today halfway the meeting went off for choir my God it was damn horrible kays all dunno how to sing after too long no practice hahaz just now smth funny happened my dear god bro(puay keat)called my phone when i was behind him wahahaha so farnie what teh hell hahaha well the practice today was soooooo devastated manz hahaz teh worst session i ever came across lol i think thats all for today for those involved in the sec1 camp out there dun forget to bring your ties on 23 for the briefing kays buaiz

2004-12-10T04:51:00.000-08:00

just when are you going to keep me waiting
the last i heard from you was
"i'll be right back"but where are you going
those last words...still in my head...
when are you coming back?
the heart that is so numb and cold...
the long wait,every night i spent alone
without you by myside,
lending your shoulder when i cried
the smile that is on your face,
that keeps me from dissipating in sorrow...

how i wished i had cherished my time with you last time
to think it is too late now to turn back
hoping for you to come back
was it a folly to wait and hope?
in the midst of the darkness your voice came like a moonlight,
shining brightly upon me,
melting the snow in my heart
restroing my senses...
but is all but a dream

what is left of my heart is now the frozen memories of past
the face,smile and laughter....
i will always remember those
how i missed the time we had,the laughter,the joy of each other's company

i called out your name once...but you didnt answer it,
i called out your name twice...still no avail,
it seems that we are lost in our own

but i kept on calling you,wishing you to come back by my side
can you not hear them?those thousand words...whispering as the wind fades to silence...
now what is left to me is the heart that misses you
a cold and numb one
if this is destiny...i will deny it
i will still be on my journey to search for my lost love...
even if it is on my own...
i will...

By:Ryan,dissipating in sorrow

2004-12-10T01:39:00.000-08:00

chances do not come twice,when they do consider urself lucky and usually the second appearance will be stealthed so think twice before u pass the chance dont only regret when u missed it,it will all be too late

2004-12-08T21:53:00.000-08:00

hahaz yay!!finally the layout has been chged lol thx to rachel
tts all i hafta say todae

WHAT A DAY

2004-11-13T03:41:00.000-08:00

GAH!!!i will never forget this day man!!!early in the morning go sentosa,late!!freked enuff when sumone tyring to push me into the water(in the end still went in,so nvm still very piseed afterall)Then abt 12 recieved a fuking call from my mum who is soooo fucking happy extending the stay in indo leaving me with nth to do AND ROT THERE ARH!!!i told her to order the ticket from 15 nov till5 dec and guesswhat she fucking did??she went to order it from tmr 14 nov(my bdae summore)till 15 dec its a fucking one month.before she ordered the freeking ticket i told her to make the stay only TWO BLODDY WEEKS...but she went to extent it to FUCKING ONE MONTH!!i hate her man im gonna HATE HER.she is a SPOILER she never supports me in whatever i did can u imagine such unpleasant mum??!!hummpH im gonna missa choir practice on 6th nov but luckily my dear godbro(pk)is willing to teache me what im gonna miss THX fer tt i appreciate it haiz...ok...thats it dun wanna tok abt it animore

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2004-11-10T08:46:00.000-08:00

vatenkeist??is that the world should be??without material matter jealousy and hatred wil cease to exist,the pain of losing the loved one will be no more...but i dun think so it is through conflict the people can change and learn but if u let urself to be brought into the darkness chaos will always strife to rule...tears and lamentation will mark a new struggle...the world is covered with vortex of hatred that no one will be able to stop it...they who started it have to end it themselves,because of their boundless desires this is what the world has become....

Melodies Of Life

2004-10-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
Melodies of life--love's lost refrain

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold
In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

* A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

re:gentle reminder...

2004-10-28T04:55:00.000-07:00

To:u know who u are,
seriously im really really dissapointed by u...I tried to help u and yet u reject it again and again...when the results came...u did freeking badly...U know the consequences...why wont u listen to me just once??do you know why i told u all those??i will tell u why...coz i have been through the process i noe how dissapointing it is...not only u are dissapointed...ppl around you and tose who loved you are dissapointed too...when are u gonna wake up and satrt picking yourself up??your future is in your hands...I hope u noe wad u are doing....

Shizukana Yoru ni; In the Quiet Night

2004-10-27T01:26:00.000-07:00

Romanji lyrics

shizukana kono yoru ni anata wo matteru no ano toki wasureta hohoemi wo tori ni kite are kara sukoshi dake jikan ga sugite omoide ga yasashiku natta ne.	In this quiet night, I'm waiting for you During that time, your smile has faded away Now that a little time has passed, Fond memories start to resurface.
hoshi no furu basho de anata ga waratte irukoto wo itsumo negatteta ima tookutemo mata aeru yo ne	At the place where stars fall, I'm always wishing for your laughter. Even though we're apart now We can meet again, right?
itsu kara hohoemi wa konna ni hakanakute hitotsu no machigaide kowarete shimau kara taisetsuna mono dake wo hikari ni kaete tooi sora koete yuku tsuyosade	From when has my smile faded this much Since it was shattered by one mistake Change only the precious things into light and* Go beyond the sky with fortitude.
hoshi no furu basho e omoi wo anata ni todoketai itsumo soba ni iru sono tsumetasa wo dakishimeru kara ima toukutemo, kitto aerune	To the place where stars fall, I want my thoughts to reach you. I am always by your side Since I will embrace that coldness. Even though we're apart now, We will definitely be back together.
shizuka na yoru ni	In the quiet night...

Anna ni issho datta no ni; So Much Together, But...

2004-10-27T01:19:00.000-07:00

romanji lyrics anna ni issho datta no ni yuugure wa mou chigau iro	english lyrics We used to have so much together, But the dusk is already a different shade.
arifureta yasashisa wa kimi wo toozakeru dake tsumetaku kimi suteta kokoro wa samayou bakari	You used to always hold me gently, now you only push me away. Your coldly cast away heart is wandering aimlessly.
sonna kakko warusa ga ikiru to iu koto nara samuzora no shita me wo tojite iyou	If you say such mischief exists, it's strange to close your eyes beneath the wintry sky.
anna ni issho datta no ni kotoba hitotsu tooranai kasoku shite ikuse naka ni ima wa	We used to have so much together, but I can't get by on just one word. Quickly leave, now is the time. [1]
anna ni issho datta no ni yuugure wa mou chigau iro semete kono tsuki akari no shita de shizuka na nemuri wo	We used to have so much together, But the dusk is already a different shade. At least I can sleep quietly in the moonlight.
unmei to umaku tsuki atte yuku nara kitto kanashii to kasabishii nante itterarenai nando motsu na gatta kotoba wo muryoku ni shite mo taikutsu n yoru wo tsubu shita ii n da ne	If the moon and my fate were to pass away, wouldn't I surely be sad and lonesome? How many times did you not want to hold me? My powerless words can pass the weary night.
anna ni issho datta no ni fusoroi na futari ni ima tadori tsukeru basho na do na ii n da	We used to have so much together, but how can this irregular couple make it in such a place?
anna ni issho datta no ni hajimete au yoko kao ni fushigi na kurai ni miserareteru tomado ukurai ni	We used to have so much together, but when we started to meet something was revealed in your mysterious, dark profile, Suspended in the deepest confusion.
kokoro wa doko ni iru doko ni fukarete iru sono hitomi ga mayowanu you ni	Where is your heart? Where is it floating? It's as if those eyes are misleading.
anna ni issho datta no ni kotoba hitotsu tooranai ugoki hajimeta kimi no jounetsu	We used to have so much together, but I can't get by on just one word. Your passion began to flow.
anna ni issho datta no ni yuugure wa mou chigau iro semete kono tsuki akari no shita de shizuka na nemuri wo	If the moon and my fate were to pass away, wouldn't I surely be sad and lonesome? How many times did you not want to hold me? My powerless words can pass the weary night.

2004-10-26T02:30:00.000-07:00

heya!!ive got alot of thing to do these few days or should i say these few months hahaz ive got camp plannings and erhm...choir practices lol yar...so...very tired i think im gonna rest cya tts all for today!!

Graduation night!!

2004-10-23T08:23:00.000-07:00

Yoz!!for the seniors who are graduating and reading my blog,hehe...All the best for your O's hahax...and then yar...it was a fantastic night last night isnt it!!yest the choir performed for the seniors and then yarhz i recieved lotsa complaint from the ppl that the choir is rather soft hahaz they cant hear us!!Choir muz buck up worx!!then yesterday i kena sabo to be an emcee to introduce the songs that the choir was going to sing so yar...i wa squite nervous then...hahaz coz it was the first time me performing on the stage(it doesnt really matter actually no presuure used to it) and then plus short intros haiz....hahax ppl says i was soft damn it hahaz gottta speak louder next time lolx i think yar tts all for yest and today din do anything much larhx juz now go out with jia jun jasmine nad carene as usual d nth sian hahaz tts all for today lol cya next time!!

Passages of time

2004-10-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

Time has a way of bringing changes and places never seen before
So we're standing in the hallway looking at this new door
Something says we are ready for what's on the other side,
so its time to throw that door open wide

They're just passages of time, just passages of time
For keeping the best and leaving the rest behind
They're just passages of time,just passages of time
For keeping the best and leaving the rest behind

When the wind of change start blowing,
brining storm to the soul,
never fear,they are there to make us grow

oops din update

2004-10-21T02:16:00.000-07:00

hiz hahaz,i din update for 3 days or more i dunno and i dun care hahaz.i had choir practices for the last three days because of the performance that we are gonna have tmr for the graduation day.three songs we had to cramp it into our heads within three days and guess wad?the progress is good we are doing well for the three songs lol.there is a song in the three songs that i dun really lyk hahaz not say dun lyk larhx but coz of the stupid steps that we had to do it makes the song very disgusting hahaz lol.eEEwwW nvm but i there is a song that is very nice and meaning ful to me haahz 'the passages of time' its a very nice song lol those ppl who have the chance to go for the graduation day pls look out for the song hahaz tts all for today cya buaiz

2004-10-17T01:54:00.000-07:00

next friday exam results coming out...scary!!i flung my math ppr 2 and of course chinese haiz ANYWAY...i will be going out tmr morning to orchard rd with kong(nick-named by jean hahas)then jean and dunno who else is going and i dun care hahas,then most probably will be in town for the whole day yupz erm...dunno wad am i going to do there also but i noe tt im going there to find a string for my gem im gonna make it into a pendant...it will look nice hahas(tts y i bought it haha)exams is over but my problems are still not over yet bwahaha...herm...hope all these will end soon nad most important thing is hope things will get better with me and him...(for those who noe me u guys noe wad i am toking abt...yupz)anyway thx for ur supports hahas THX!!BIG TIMES!!

end of exam

2004-10-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

yay!!today my examination ends...happy at the same time sian also coz nth to do at hme haiz...then muz start saving up promised my dear godbro treat him go pizza hut if he got 2 A1's or more ya..merely trying to motivate him and push him so tt he will do slightly better or hopefully much more better.herm...monday going to orchard with my classmates.1st time going with thwm,wonder how stupid can they get..yupz.today history qns is fine but,not enuff time to finish everything i wasted 9 marks...lol yupz i think tts all for todae cya tmr on kids central!!

burning mid night oil

2004-10-14T06:00:00.001-07:00

haiz...so tired go out for the wholeday instead of studiying at home lolx tmr last two papers history and cme -_- lolx.then i went out for the whole day three palces erm... lot 1 then go panjang then go orchard finally...home so... i hafta study for my history and my cme now argh!!

burning midnight oil...

2004-10-14T06:00:00.000-07:00

re:complaint

2004-10-13T06:15:00.000-07:00

argh!!me gonna have D&T exam tmr!!nad i havent studied lolx still here online some more was sleeping for five hours from 1 till 6 hahas piGgiE!!

2004-10-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

heyz ppl...how was ur exams ??hahas erm...mine was very screwed up lolx not enuff time!! argh!!1hr 30 mins for social studies its not enuff!! i lost abt 8 marks from it hahas tts all i think for today...
see u tmr in kids cantral lolx

2004-10-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

heyz...how was ur pprs today...hahas mine??erm... ok larhx during chem ppr today my fren was asking me qn desperately lol so i gave him few amrks for tt(some more chairperson)lolx erm.. i think tts all

l1f3

2004-10-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

l1fe...a painful race...

~~AloNe In ThE DaRkneSS rEcAlLiNg ThE woNdErfUl MemorIeS we Had~~